It's been 41 days. Friends look envious when I tell them the news. A congratulations followed by how nice to be able to sleep in, are the normal segways to what do you do all day? Clearly I have fallen short of my plans to drive across the country, fill you readers with endless wisdom from my daily finds or have a start date for my next career on the calendar. While I stick to the structure of daily alarms at 7am and desk time devoted to researching possible opportunities, the days quickly pass. 41 days. When I say the words out loud, I get panicked. 41 days of no work. I am trying to keep the anxiety levels down but productivity levels up. Productivity. The frustration hit an all time high yesterday and today as I sat staring at my computer. I know I could do a better job pounding the pavement taking every opportunity to find "it". But I am looking for that feeling. The legacy of Steve Jobs continues to remain in my thoughts as I search for that feeling of purpose. "Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it."
So until then, here is what I have been up to as I look for love:
1. I painted a wall in my apartment blue, thanks to the inspiration from my artistic sister who painted stripes in her hallway (I began with stripes - crooked stripes)
2. I painted the wall that I painted blue, back to white
3. Celebrating birthdays
4. Walks with friends
5. Cooking
6. A date
7. Going to the swings with Miss P
8. A movie by myself (with a little candy as my date)
9. A concert in the park with friends
10. Accepting a board seat on an important cause dedicated to research for spinal deformities (more on that to come)
11. Training and orientation to become a Big Sister of New York City
12. A train ride to DC
13. A car ride to Delaware
14. Sitting on some steps on Park Avenue
Hasn't been all that bad now that I think about it. Best part about those 41 days - spending time with those I love and admire, some near and some far. Looking forward to tomorrow. Another day to do something I love. I'll keep you posted, I promise.
